my little bear

my least favorite time of day: 5 pm. thus commences the crying, the rubbing the eyes, the whining. feed her supper in the high chair. clean her up. put her in the tub. watch her play in the bubbles. try to keep her still to put a diaper on her. let her play some more. try to hold her down to put some clothing on her. listen to her whine. she's winding down.
my favorite time of day: 630 pm. grab the bottle. grab the blankie. turn the sound machine on. hold her in my arms in the rocking chair in the nursery. sing her songs that i make up, feed her the bottle, stroke her cheek. she stares at me and closes her eyes. silence. happiness. finish the bottle and the songs. pat her on the back on my shoulder. she cuddles. kiss her all over the face and tell her i love her. she rests on my shoulder. ease her into the crib. turn on the mobile with fish going around in circles. tuck her blankie around her. stroke her sweet face. tell her i love her. leave the room. she's asleep! it's so wonderful.
SIGH.